Being productive

In recent days, I started watching productivity videos on YouTube. The reason I started watching them was that my productivity went through the shit hole. I stopped being productive, some would argue stopped working, and I knew deep inside that these banal tips by self-proclaimed gurus wouldn’t help. Tips like: have a clear schedule. Thanks, Einstein!

The brain is tricky, and it sometimes needs to be tricked. For me, much of the issue was the fact that at any given time, I much prefer just to think, and write, since these were free-spirited activities. Working, on the other hand, was very closed-minded. I had a task, and that task was vague. My brain wanted to avoid that vagueness.

So, here comes the tips right? Fuck tips. Let’s be here for a second. In the fact that it’s hard to work. It doesn’t move you at all to work, right? Maybe that could be a solution. I mean, I’m not sure. Let’s take a story. I do like it when things fall apart. Sometimes that’s the only way to construct something meaningful.

You are writing to the algorithm of Google right? Just kidding.

Let’s take the problem as a given, and try to work out a solution without facing the problem. That sometimes brings a new and better solution. Who has time to go face to face and confront issues? That rarely works. See every revolution in history.

So, what if instead of writing into an initial order, you write out of chaos, hoping that over time the writing will order itself. Or not, and you end up with long texts that someone else needs to edit. And why edit?

Just move forward. Just work, but without working. That’s just having fun. Writing 10,000 words a day and hoping the algorithm finds it helpful to put in front of people, and hoping one person will see that the way this is written is different that everything else. There is something to improvisation right?

This is an experiment. The experiment has to do with me, the writer, not my readers.

Just writing publically. Having everything I write come out publically, available to all eternity.

So this is the solution to productivity, but it doesn’t really solve my issue of editing. The only solution here is to start early, have an hour timer? One hour per day, just reading my writing and recording myself reading it.

This is not a bad solution, it would remove the need to work. This is not very clearly stated in this article, but hopefully I can rephrase it.

I’m not ready to give up. There must be something more here. So what if we make a system out of it?

Let’s take an actual example. Because I don’t think I really want to avoid work. I think that my tasks are unclear to me, but in a special way.

In fact, I just want to work, but work in a way that is directed and without doubt. I want to be like a factory worker. I want to be the most prolific writer in the world.

So this is me, thinking machine. Just coming up with line after line that would sound good if played as the back story of a movie, showing Paris, with the music of Cigarette after sex playing in the background.

Can I run an experiment tomorrow testing out the new working situation? Working in a real factory, this is where I am right now. Just picking up the pieces and placing them neatly in the Television set, over and over again, for 50 years.

Not working. Not having deadlines. Living. Having a craft. In this strange confused reality, it sometimes helps to dream outside the box. Am I an automat or not. My cat just flipped out.

I’m already tired, but I know I have to keep working. I don’t know if this hesitation is something good or not. I don’t know anything right now. I just know this article is super-not clear and confusing. If I had to read it, it would be torture for me.

Simplify it. Tomorrow you have to work. What are you going to do different? I’m not going to sleep until you figure it out.

Let’s see, there are two texts that need to be completed. I haven’t done anything to complete them. I am waaaay behind schedule. Fuck me.I am fucking privelaged, that’s my problem. Have me away with some brick layering for a week, or manning the cash register. Then back to writing the texts. It won’t help to figure out what the problem is. But what is the problem? why not take and film it? be like anthony hopkins. Film it 100 times. Be crazy focused.

Set a time between 8–10 to be super-focused on doing that. Recording it all 100 times. Be crazy. Be like a crazy, frenzied person working. This is the real novelty of being productive.

I really don’t know if it would work. I don’t know a lot these days.

Enthusiasm. Doing it repetitively. Being crazy about doing it right. Finishing the project. Having fun. Not hating my colleague. These are tough things to achieve.